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[sistershoggoth]

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TELEPATHY PERMISSIONS

Annie is a lot of things. She is not entirely just a human, her consciousness is also the consciousness of an alien planet: where she is life and death, growth and decay, all of nature and the ocean and all of the things that survive in those places. She's every rock down to its individual atoms. A casual observer is unlikely to get that far in their understanding of her, but those who get closest to her and end up sharing dreams with her will have a chance to understand this granularity of her other-ness. At a further distance, the inside of Annie feels very expansive, a large and lightless space which observes. There is always a sense like she is getting closer to you, a subtle invasion of privacy, space, autonomy. She doesn't do this on purpose, it's just what's in her. There's definitely a sense that she could swallow or drown you, in herself. The big black emptiness she feels inside is rarely in line with what she's presenting externally, it's very dissonant. It's worse when she's actively analyzing you. Better when she's totally dismissive of your existence. This is what lurks in the depths of Annie, but her human side is there. Her humanity is strained by the enormity of what she is secondarily aware of. She's not entirely sane, nor stable. Her mind is extremely active, and her imagination particularly vivid. She comes with a great deal of noise and color, which is a total smokescreen for keeping the more otherworldly aspects of herself in the periphery. This only kind of works, her other nature tends to expose itself regardless and her mental voice is not merely one voice, but all those voices coming together, which gives them a warbling, underwater like quality. She's a recovering, and often relapsed, addict and alcoholic. She is always trying not to feel something, and always wishing to not really be herself. The noise and color also tries to cover up this, she is always trying to ignore her own strain: pain, anxiety, sorrow. When she is drinking, much of the sensory onslaught of her is muted, a way of clouding herself: a murky swamp that she wallows in. When she is using... everything is amplified and she is particularly sprawling and out of control.

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[sistershoggoth]

[ The thing shifts, joints rolling to peer curiously sideways at the sense of him. She wonders when the last time they talked about anything was, didn't that used to be constant? Well, she's not so surprised by that, self-medicating always did have a way of isolating you; the taste of bad decisions. ]

( Maybe, dunno, I drank with a bunch of people at the funeral. )

[ Losing track of who she's meant to be connected with, names, places, statements. ]

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[somnifacient]

[It isn't what he wanted to hear as a response. He is more than aware of the fact that they've not spoken in a while, not even about stupid, little things. Not even exchanging snarky words, fake fighting and making faces at each other. The drinking had gotten in the way. As always, disapproval rises, but Noctis is trying to keep this a normal conversation for once -- before it devolves into something that makes them both upset.]

(His name's Prompto. You should say hi sometime. You two would get along.)

[Maybe.]

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[sistershoggoth]

( Are you trying to set me up on a playdate? You're the one who has no friends. )

[ Dumb shy baby prince.... ]

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[somnifacient]

(Uh. Wrong. I just told you my best friend was here.)

[Geez Annie!]

(Figured you might want to say hi.)

[Isn't that what friends do with other friends? Introduce them to each other? Stop making him second guess himself. he's not good at this.]

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[sistershoggoth]

( I will say hi to your friend, but I don't promise he will like me. )

[ Most people don't. ]

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[somnifacient]

(Not asking you to make him like you. Though you might be surprised. Prompto gets along with just about everybody.)

[A bright ray of sunshine in that deep darkness. Even Eos' claws had only sunk in so deep into Prompto, during those ten years; unable to break apart his usual smiles and vigor into pieces. Or so Noctis believes.]

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[sistershoggoth]

( So what do you need me for? Go get along with everybody with him. )

[ This is a pissy, petty little thing to say, and she'll maybe feel like a shithead for it later. Right now it just feels easy. The path of least resistance to continue feeling sorry for herself, drive herself into a corner. ]

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[somnifacient]

[It's easy to let good humor and hopefulness slip through the cracks when he's met with that kind of response. He makes a sorry attempt at clinging to it, though it may as well be evaporating.

But Noctis is stubborn. Try, try again.]

(Because you need some cheering up, Annie.)

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[sistershoggoth]

( Life of the party. No cheering required. )

[ Tears of a clown, blahblahblah. ]

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[somnifacient]

(Not what I meant and you know it.)

[So stubborn, sometimes he feels like he's talking to a brick wall.]

(Come on. Not like it's going to hurt you to say hi to him.)

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[sistershoggoth]

[ She's a brick wall of nonsense. That much is absolutely true. ]

( You never know, I might snap his little brain like a twig. )

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[somnifacient]

(I have some faith that Prompto will survive it if you try.)

[A survivor was a fine word to describe him, after all that his friend has been through.]

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[sistershoggoth]

( Sounds like a challenge. )

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[somnifacient]

(Yeah, come back to me and tell me how that went.)

[His faith in Prompto is!! Strong!!]

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[sistershoggoth]

( Feeling fucking betrayed right now. )

[ Prompto's brain will squish under her fury. ]

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[somnifacient]

(Don't be, it's for your own good.)

[He believes in you, Prompto. Don't die.]

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[sistershoggoth]

( It's for my own good that you have more faith in him than in me? )

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[somnifacient]

(No, it's for your own good that his mood is infectious. Just trust me on it, okay?)

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[sistershoggoth]

( Fine! Fuck, just shut up about it already... )

[ She is a charming young woman, as always..... A great friend and companion..... that Annie......... ]