When Annie came back to the world, she was understandably lost and confused. Everyone was, which is why everyone went back to the Academy, at first. When they got there though, they found Díana treating it like a throne she had inherited from Sparrows... and that rubbed the surviving humans the wrong way after having their world trampled and their friends murdered by said alien menace. Díana was a common enemy for them to unite around, and it did a lot to smooth over personality differences and differences of opinion. For a time, Therese's strictness and mothering felt like exactly what Annie needed, and like she has so many times before: she latched on. She put a lot of her emotional weight on Therese, who bore it because she was good at it.
But then the issue of whether or not the pathos-bearers would come out into the light arose...
Annie sided with those who wanted to stay hidden, because she wanted to stay hidden. It was a selfish choice that had nothing at all to do with the good of the community at large. She wanted things to go back to the way they were, and she very specifically wanted to stay out of the limelight. She already felt burdened by those who saw her as a hero, let alone announcing it to the entire world.
Therese did not agree. She no longer wished to be repressed, as she had been by Sparrows, and Annie's total lack of empathy for this position disgusted her, especially after she had done to care for the other woman. Annie let her down.
So, she left.
Annie had never been outright left by someone before. People had died, she could handle that, act of god, still awful but-- She was particularly bereft to know that she had driven Therese away.
Her infatuation with Therese is mostly in retrospect. She didn't think she loved her when she was around, and took all she did for granted. The only way she can really reconcile how she feels about the way they've split is to explain it as love, because love is dangerous and awful and drives people away when you fuck it all up.
In the end though, she's too weak to want pathos supremacy. She's too tired and too scared. She is, quite honestly, not good enough for Therese, and it's easy to pine after something she knows she doesn't deserve.
Willing to acknowledge she's a loser and a coward: not really willing to acknowledge how she hurt Therese by using her, and encouraging her to stay the same captive to the Academy she had always been.
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But then the issue of whether or not the pathos-bearers would come out into the light arose...
Annie sided with those who wanted to stay hidden, because she wanted to stay hidden. It was a selfish choice that had nothing at all to do with the good of the community at large. She wanted things to go back to the way they were, and she very specifically wanted to stay out of the limelight. She already felt burdened by those who saw her as a hero, let alone announcing it to the entire world.
Therese did not agree. She no longer wished to be repressed, as she had been by Sparrows, and Annie's total lack of empathy for this position disgusted her, especially after she had done to care for the other woman. Annie let her down.
So, she left.
Annie had never been outright left by someone before. People had died, she could handle that, act of god, still awful but-- She was particularly bereft to know that she had driven Therese away.
Her infatuation with Therese is mostly in retrospect. She didn't think she loved her when she was around, and took all she did for granted. The only way she can really reconcile how she feels about the way they've split is to explain it as love, because love is dangerous and awful and drives people away when you fuck it all up.
In the end though, she's too weak to want pathos supremacy. She's too tired and too scared. She is, quite honestly, not good enough for Therese, and it's easy to pine after something she knows she doesn't deserve.
Willing to acknowledge she's a loser and a coward: not really willing to acknowledge how she hurt Therese by using her, and encouraging her to stay the same captive to the Academy she had always been.